doubt your doubts and believe your beliefs

hello
bonjour
guten nachmittags (iz tht right??)
and all those good things

Tuesday feels like an approximate age ago
much has happened and yet nothing has happened

Wednesday involved exciting snowball fights and snow-angel manufacturing, much crazy foto taking with Stef R which ws fun as i had consumed much sugar and caffiene (yes it was the old comfort eating bcoz it ws soo cold in the common room....)
and getting semi-toldoff by the Downey as the exam is nearer than two weeks (well it is now! which kinda freaks me out) as my modern acting piece is not yet up to scratch, ho hum!!

Thursday was full of forgetting; to go to register, which lesson i was in at what times and that psychology coursework data collection was supposed to be doing
fun,fun

Friday involved more psuchology coursework (and amazement that the members of 8L could do a puzzle (which took us a very long time to work out ) in under a minute! so have had to "review" the results
darn the clever year 8's
though i think any coursework which involves data collection spells absolute disaster
circumstances conspire against us, especially me!
(beth, weez and hannah take notes never to have me in a group again!)
jokes: it wasn't that bad rele!!

then lessons: husselbury = work:chat ratio of 0.5:10
no change there
gates = stress level: chat with stef r level 50:50
and write-up of chem assessed pract going spectacularly worse than i thought it looked like when i did it at home
so overall no change

then psychology where there was a larger change
in which i actually got given homework (apart from the coursework)
and all because me and hannah were dawdling (is tht a word?!) out of the classroom as per usual
hmm and grrrs

saturday was 75% rest and 25% work
which invariably happens when i have an unstructured day ahead of me
nice bike ride with daddy-ums on the golf course
haven't bin for a while
man, those hills were difficult
lol!
then house to myself in the eve
which was very nicey for a change
watched tv and did nothing else much at all
cept eat
argh

i dislike comfort eating
however i love it more
its not even comfort eating
its just "i'm bored" eating

moral of the ramble: i should busy myself more being organised instead of being the lazy slob i am slowly becoming....
hehe
i love it rele
and plus, i'm not obese yet
:P

now i am off to finish work
*yea rite*
well at least i'm going to pretend that the above statement is correct

Conclusion: I live in a complete fantasy world!

9 DAYS TILL SWITCHFOOT!!

Concrete girl don't fall down in this broken world around you. Concrete girl don't fall down, don't fall down my concrete girl

I LOVE SWITCHFOOT

:D

THIS IS THE OFFICIAL COUNTDOWN!

2 WEEKS

*SCREAMS*

OH YEA!!!

TWO WORD ANSWERS:

1. Where is your cell phone? School bag

2. Boyfriend? Really? where?

3. Your hair? Dark blonde

4. Your mother? lovely (mostly)

5. Your father? ditto above

7. Your dream last night? worries surfaced

8. Your favorite drink? cranberry juice

9. Your dream car? dunno. surprisingly!

10. The room you are in? The lounge

11. Your ex? Doesnt exist

12. Your fear? Being mediocre

13. Where do you want to be in 10 years? Africa hospitals

14. Who did you hang out with yesterday? School friends

15. What are you not? Normal person

16. Muffins? Double Chocolate

17. One of your wish list items? CD rack

18. Time? 8mins past6

19. The last thing you did? wasted time

20. What are you wearing? Pink, jeans

22. Your favorite book? Time TravellersW

23. The last thing you ate? Fruit. Healthy!

24. Your life? A-mazing(ish)

25. Your mood? middle, annoyed

26. Your friends? lovely chicks

27. What are you thinking about right now? Music playing

28. Your car? European tractor

29. What are you doing at the moment? Humming tunes

30. Your summer? Much anticipated

31. Your relationship status? Free. Single.

32. What is on your tv? Shortly...ER

33. When was the last time you laughed? 15to 4

34. Last time you cried? not telling

35. School? Meh?! arrrggghh!

There is a silent pact of trust that I never could admit

I will destroy the evil in the world
one malfunctioning lampost at a time(!)

u belong with me
i belong to no-one
cept God

I am my own person
part of the milling crowd

Chem re-sit was ok - don't want to over-analyse coz i will drive myself with the "what-ifs" so will let you know exactly how it went when i get the results.
Thursday other than the chemistry is abit of a blur - saw mrs green about NLP which was fun and a little more of that self-analysis stuff...not much that i didn't already no to be fair but was still interesting!
much fun was had with mind-mapping software in psychology.....quite a rubbish lecture later on in the afternoon but not unbearable!

Friday was a bit of a blur aswell - mostly due to tiredness and pounding headache which is still haunting me at sporadic intervals. actually did work on fri morning which i haven't done for a while! biology was ok - debating about stem cells, genetic therapy and lovely other things like that....also scheming a trip to the natural hsitory museum - jst as human biologists and mrs husselbury (and now mayb also dr masri!)
which would b kwl - bt a lil wierd if it ws a 1:1 teacher, student ratio (coz only the two of us doing human bio)
also omar freaked me out bigtime by suggesting that ppl would think masri and mrs h were our rents if it wer jst them and us2.
not happy about this suggestion.
at all.
still we could look bac and laugh

hmmmmm......

chem was fun(ish) assessed practical (we are miileees ahead of the other chem grp which is pleasing!) and then it was psychology (yawn!) and then horse-riding - one horse got freaked and galloped - almost dragging newly dismounted rider with him - which was scary - luckily i wasn't aforementioned rider.

FUEL on Friday was gd....the vid of me and eilidh in a drama wasn't as embarrassing as it could have been!! so all is gd!

Last night i went with Omar and her parents and Omar's parents friends to see a play called "If I Were You" in the ford of guild
which was very laugh-out-loud funny
a nice relief
the darker sides of it were a nice non-advert for marriage

it involved a body-swap btwn man and wife
superbly acted

then went bac2omar's house, ate toast and went v.quickly to sleep as we were both shattered, specially omar who had spent most of the day dealing with "wierd" germans in london, but we did manage to reminisce nicely about DofE and the various scraps and mishaps; good, bad and downright hilarious.

such as anji walking into a disabled toilet cubicle coz the others were all locked, locking the door and turning round to be faced with none other than cathy dick staring back from the loo-seat.
this made me laugh at a lot, at anji's expense i fear!
(argh got anji and axni mixed up while typing - i thought i'd got out of the naming muddle i was nicely entangled in a year-or-so ago :S)

yes
i have spent too long doing this

like rolling up a ball of a string
right from the v.beginning

must go
hope ure various weekend activities have been fun
xox

floods,gales and snow next week - love it!

Yes thats right ppl
I have just endorsed the above British weather
the reason for this is that we have had (almost) enough rain to replace the dangerously low supplies there were over the summer so this summer should be less hose-pipe bans (which means more water fights etc..) its all goood!
Sure within a couple of days of the weather i will be back to moaning - phaps a bit longer if its snow......

So......tomorrow is chemistry - i am crap scared - i rele need2find myself a chem tutor (nt b4 2moro obv!) who can help me get (at least) a B @ A2 - right about now i am set for *mumbles quietly and turns away* why, why, why?

ok i'm gonna put an end to another "i'm feeling hopeless" rant b4 it takes off
bcoz life is alot more than chemistry (or school)
and once i've got good grades in my ALevels i will be able to appreiciate that alot more!!
:P

my mock interview with Dodd on Mon went well as did the driving lesson :D
can't remember much about tuesday!
drivin lesson 2day didn't go quite so well - drama lesson also wasn't as nice as usual - downey ws in a mood and i hadnt gt one of my acting pieces up to standard

alot more has happened than i can remember to write down

did u miss me while you were out there looking for yourself?
la la la
however - i disagree with the song that is currently on virgin

heaven is not over-rated!

Well they got the first bit right!!.....

Kat -- [noun]: A person of questionable sanity who starts their own cult 'How" will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com

I love hugs

Yessuh

I was gonna blog earlier on but got sidetracked by lots of ppl chatting to me - my first time on msn since the new year!! (when actually appearing online that is!)

Just to let everyone know that i am now in a much better mood as wednesday finally decided to leave me in peace

Now I have relaxed and am gearing myself up to start panicking about chemistry next week thursday

but enough of that despicable subject at this late hour
yes it is very late

i am not helping my tiredness headache by still being awake and staring at a TV screen
i am having immense fun uploading photos onto bebo which were taking on a v.funny evening in Sept '06
so funny
i'm still laughing about it now!!!

i'm nt sure anyone else will find it funny bt will hv2wait n see....i think i might give up uploading them now tho and save it till 2moro

its taking centuries

cu around chicks!

p.s. thankie muchy for the uber-long comment - i will reply 2moro morning during my doppel-free.....

p.p.s thankie for ure comment len-man-bt more importantly thank u4 a lovely library duty and fun afternoon
"i am in the business of long engagements"

Thank you and Good Night!

I need to know I need to know tonight

YES

RIGHT NOW
I NEED TO MAGICALLY REMEMBER EVERYTHING I WAS SUPPOSED TO LEARN LAST YEAR IN BIOLOGY

i suck

this post sucks

and although part of me doesn't care anymore

the most part of me hates me for not being more motivated, for not doing more revision, for not being clever enough to remember enough to get decent grades, for the wasting time on the internet (damn all the myspaces, bebos and blogs of this world), for lying about how I feel, how much revision i've managed.

why can't I be more organised about organising my gap year

why don't i have time to see all the friends i want to

why am i telling you this?

ARGH

i need an elena-hug

i need a ling hug

i need a hannah hug

I NEED LOTS OF HUGS PPL!!

ok so now i am laughing hysterically at myself

and i feel alot better for the keyboard rant

lots of things off the chestie

Now off to cram

am having second thoughts about posting this coz i'm alrite rele

better press the publish button before i have a chance to read this

and not let the fact that i have my first drama lesson with downey 2moro cross my mind

:S

its all banannas

*bananas of the world unite!*

no-one bt mi biology trip dormies are gonna get that, bt hey!

dance all night to the early morn

Now

this has to be quick

revision urgently needs attending to

methinks re-sits are a silly idea right now!

anywys

thurs and fri's wer mostly nonentities

but am tired from trying and failing to get bac into the school routine - which - i have come to the conclusion is the complete opposite of my biological body clock....

:S

Saturday ws mostly work

and falling over - yes this is very random - i nearly broke my stereo coz i fell over my sofa!

hv sum lovely bruises on my left elbow and shoulder area from denting my wall by pushing the stereo off its stand!

luckily my stereo is an adrenaline junkie and didn't mind this little mishap(!)

and then it was stef's party

i dressed up like a powerpuff girl

with a dress my sister wore in her dance show and a mask that my sister made a couple of years ago!

so basically lots of my sisters stuff

the mask was silly and kept falling down

it looked like this

hehe

lots of fun was had

over-priced drinks were bought

and i danced ALOT

literally hours

my feet hurt

the best bit was hollering the lyrics of "living on a prayer" with rosenburg, cassie, beth-man and V

and dancing with randomers from stef's work who i had no idea who they were

everyone looked lovely

ok that is my blog for today over

back to the weekly grind

why can't all weeks be two days long???

I’m waiting here for my life to change, when the waters stir you can rearrange me

Well, the new year wouldn't be the new year without some good old self analysis. So i have enlisted some crappy quizzes to help me out! (the titles of the quizzes are for some reason in white so you will hv 2 highlight to see the title of the quiz - or jst look at the hyperlink which is at the end of the results....)

What Your Face Says

At first glance, people see you as warm and well-balanced. Overall, your true self is passive and thoughtful. With friends, you seem dramatic, lively, and quick to react. In love, you seem gentle and sensitive. In stressful situations, you seem selfish and moody.

What Do People Think Of Your Face?

You Are An ENFJ

The Giver You strive to maintain harmony in relationships, and usually succeed. Articulate and enthusiastic, you are good at making personal connections. Sometimes you idealize relationships too much - and end up being let down. You find the most energy and comfort in social situations ... where you shine. You would make a good writer, human resources director, or psychologist.

What's Your Personality Type?

What Your Soul Really Looks Like

You are a warm hearted and open minded person. It's easy for you to forgive and forget. You are a grounded person, but you also leave room for imagination and dreams. You feet may be on the ground, but you're head is in the clouds. You see yourself with pretty objective eyes. How you view yourself is almost exactly how other people view you. Your near future is all about change, but in very small steps. The end of the journey looks far, but it's much closer than you realize. For you, love is all about caring and comfort. You couldn't fall in love with someone you didn't trust.

Inside the Room of Your Soul

So there, now you know a whole lot of rubbish about me that you didn't know about me before!

isn't your life jst so much more amazing?

2 things tho - if anyone could enlighten me as to what on earth a ENFJ is i would be much obliged....also i'm sincerely hoping that my soul does not rele look like the picture they have used

as that would be disturbing

looking bac on the aims i made last yr on this blog i cn see i hv failed on most of them

but yea

these things are made to be broken

aren't they??!!

so this yr i'm nt gonna make any publication of my aims , altho i do hav many

e.g. getting into the remaining med schools i have applied for

oh cumon a girl can dream!!!

needless to say i am likely to be disappoinnted becoz i am human

which is hopelessly overrated (being human that is)

missed the expectation and i have no explaination

altho

smiles will always hide the cracks

:D

:D

lol

well i'm gonna put my new shoes on and suddenly everything's right

HAPPY NEW YEAR!
from an idiot that can't count
yes folks thats right; u see in the last post i misinformed u that this post wood b my 100th
bt i ws wrong
bcoz it sed 99 posts before i published the last post
which didn't quite register with me
doofus


but the whole thing is abit immaterial to the actual thing which is blogging
so
i type on


last night ws new years which ws alot of fun - was round whiteheads house at a small gathering
much poker playing, idiot playing (idiot is a card game), dance mat playing, chatting, eating, drinking
watching young ones getting out of their trees on the "three pints of beer" in the fridge
and being worried abt one of the young ones i didnt no

ws all ok in the end tho
which ws gd

lots of catching up ws done which ws nice

gt 6andahalf hours sleep
which is v.decent for children who went to bed at 4:30
hehe

then today ws a drowsy blur
walks with kipper
and tree-climbers
and old buddies
and the grown-ups

and food
and board game playing
and not anything much else

i am off to bed so i have enough energy to panic and do lots of revision 2moro

HAVE A GOOD 2007 EVERYONE!

coincidences

This is my 99th post!

I am saving the 100th for the 1st Jan 2007
good times!

since xmas eve it has been xmas day when much ws eaten, unwrapped, jubilated over.
I got; a lava lamp, chocolates, jeremy camp's new album, muse's album, oasis (best of), switchfoot (the early yrs), shes the man dvd, DKNY perfume, socks, make-up, jewellery (lots of pretty earrings :D) and money.
Then on the Day of Boxing we (we being my immediate family and my dad's parents) went down to Taunton to see my uncle and his partner.
This was mucho fun (excluding the barking dog - which ws lovely when not barking..bt when barking made me jump and be paranoid lots - coz i am a silly susage)
we went shopping to the retail park near Taunton and bought lots of kwl clothes (which were already reduced) in the sale, slept lots, ate lots, chatted lots, read lots and revisied not at all.

i don't like my dysfunctional family

Now i am back, have had my hair cut - not much difference bt feels lighter lol - hv ppl coming over 2nite - FUEL social thingy - lots of work to do

I miss seeing skl friends
hvnt seen ppl for over a wk now - kinda annoying - wish i didn't hav to go to skl to see evry1 lol!

Lunchy is almost ready and need to go and finishing tidying stuff

Don't even know how i can be hungry - eaten alot recently!!

famous last words!

OK so the snobbish lot at Brighton and Sussex Med School decided that i wasn't good enough for them - all i can say is i'm glad i found out about the interview first as otherwise the rejection would have felt a lot worse!

a lot has happened in the past couple of days, monday feels like it was at least two weeks ago!!

Thursday was all good - day up in london with weez, elena, beth-man, maddy and vev - lots of fun in china-town with chucking a chocolate swiss roll at a poor unsuspecting chinese girl, falling over a paving stone and bruising my knee and eating chicken feet (which ws quite the unsavoury snack it sounds like....)

then a rele, rele, rele fun (and expensive evening)..............ended off very nicely with Hagen Dazs ice-cream in Leicester Square at about 10:30pm (lol, yes i know we're very random)
i then got accousted by grumpy tube worker person asking me in a very gruff and deep voice why on earth i had ice-cream......

i then gave him a very odd answer with a huge grin plastered across my silly face
this answer consisted of
"errrm...its a random thing to do and i like being random...so yea"

mygosh


what an idiot


a funny idiot

but whatever

yes then it was friday and not much was done - i can't remember anything - sloping around and doing not a lot of work

yep that sounds comfortingly familiar :P


then it was saturday and i helped to make a lot of christingles up at church
this is an.....erm.....interesting tradition in the church
also a lot of fun
and involves sweet eating
which is always gd in my book!

see the free encylopedia for a brief description:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Christingle

then driving to library to discover they have no way to get hold of the modern play i need to read for drama
damnit

then later on driving to the rocking town that is egham for last-minute shopping, dropping off my sis to be an angel(yea rite!) in the outdoor nativity (yes she froze) and going round one of my primary skl friends to drop off her present and chat and other kwl stuf like that.

then today was also quite a lot of driving which is all gd
my grandma and one of my mums friends came round for lunch
then my godmother came round and we chatted for aggges about kwl stuff such as physiotherapy (she is a physio), interviews, her flat, uni's, gap years and alot of other things
was fun
then i wrapped presents for aggges (bcoz i am definitely the acknowledged "worst wrapper" in my family)
and now i am being summoned to spend some quality time with family time before going to "midnight mass" which starts at 11 (yes i know how oxymoronical this seems!)
so yes now i have bored u all with the silly little details of my life
i will cu all on the other side of xmas day!!


HAPPY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!!! (only 2 more hours to go!!!)
Hope u hv a blessed day w family and/or friends

xxxxxxxoxxxxxxxxxxx

well, well, well

I HAVE AN INTERVIEW
YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!

The lovely lot in the Uni of East Anglia have given me an interview for the 1st Feb
so i am now very excited and very scared at the same time
but at least the first thing i heard about was an interview rather than rejection
:D :D :D :D :D

in other things
mon night ws kwl at laura's - think i may have been the most sober one by the end (apart frm mayb the driving ones!) - but enjoyd it - gd to see friends who i hadn't seen for a weekend(!) nd the izzy - lots of chatting!

tuesday was a bit of a noneity but the plumber man came and fixed the heating so that was a definite improvement all round!

then 2day spent most of the day freezing myself in richmond with the ever-random merlin
good, random, fishy sign times (makes perfect sense ja?......nein??????)

so alot more revisied is needed if i'm ever going to make it thru the resits
bt thats not going happen 2moro as am up in london for most of the day having fun!
its a hard ol' life(!)

comiserations go the 'mael about the driving test but i'm sure 2nd time will b lucky for u!
and good luck with finding more arabic versions of the name len-man!

I am in a bouncy-happy mood
lots of loveage, peace and goodwill!

xox

BOO!

To you: from my inner beast


yes i am insanely bored

Trade in all our words for tea and sympathy

Somewhere in the world tonight there's a fire blazing bright

and that somewhere jst happens to be my house!!
the heating is broken
so i am more than a little cold right now as the fire us in the lounge and my room is not very close to the lounge (its times like these i'd actually love to be cosily tucked away in a smaller house!!)

could bring a heater up to my room but if i leave this chair i will lose my nice seat which i have spent awhile warming up(!) so am staying curled up here for the foreseeable future....

not very long to christmas - this is exciting bt we haven't decorated the tree yet so things aren't feeling as christmassy as they should.....

my sis is in ireland with her bf and his family where it is colder than here (but i bet their heating is working)

sorry folks i am a little too fixated on the whole warmth thing right now :P

i hope the heating at laura's house is working 2nite(!)
but then again i'm not even sure i can go to that coz i'm nt sure abt lifts......

ho hum

back to the revision methinks
*shivers*

p.s. ok lingy thanks for letting me no how things are going.....don't worry abt the pressies...they're not important at all.....i dont mind either way whether i get them or not...... i would jst quite like to be able 2cu again.....but i will!!
So
MERRY CHRISTMAS FROM ME!

For my audience of One; seeking your face and not only your hand

So if the rule of

'Rubbish dress rehearsal, great performance' is rele true the "assembly" (blank look) tomorrow is going to be absolutely and completely fantastic

don't anyone hold their breath
they might go purple


like trying to hold your breath from the morning till noon (sorry, not related to current discussion - jst a nice little connection in my head!)

As per usual all the amazing things i was going to blog about 'later' have vanished into thick air
(darn that smoke machine....)

i mean cummon u wernt rele expecting a blogging masterpiece, were you?

o u were....
....well go find one of those 'award winning' blogs to read then


argh
am waay too tired
the diagnostic tool i have used for this is that i am rambling, even while blogging, which = tiredness to the power of squim-cubed

which is alot as rosenburg and omar will no doubt remember

giant swing


i was going to make some deep and philisophical statement to finish but none such inspiration is appearing in my mind so i shall settle for a boring old fact that

if you damage your cerebrum (a big structural thing in your brain)
you're basically dead


nice cheerful fact that one is, non?
(i think you all know the answer to that question ;P)

ok, i am well aware that the words on your lips are 'enough already'


so here i am 'enoughing already' myself into finishing my work and getting my sad, sorry fogged over brain to bed.

rosettes and adorations


oh, and, the actual reason i blogged is to offer my profuse apologies to Ling2 for not going to see the woking version of 'Anything Goes' (if its any consolation i didn't manage to go and see the swps version either :S) as i had every good intention to go but never managed rto goet my act together to organise it, what with it being in the last week of term and everything. So i hope it went well and that you enjoyed performing it!
Ru coming to Laura's on the 18th?? i hope ur; i have pressies and cards and big 'i can't feel my toes' hugs and lovely things like that :D

And another way i know i am tired to the power of squim cubed is that i am using long words and typing words such as 'you' in full
*shakes head in utter dismay!*

moggie

Hello
feeling better, alot better, i am

which is gd coz i need to be alert for babysitting later on (well, at least till they go to bed)

was supposed to be going to Staines 2day bt it kinda never happened so
thatsthat
i'm gonna go in my free afternoon on Monday

much unsuccessful manourving (no idea hw to spell) done 2day
saw josh practicing while i was practising which ws fun!

lots of work and tests to be revisied for but am feeling unduly lazy right now


had lots of random ideas for blog
but now have to go and eat
so will hv 2 wait.....

Bleurgh

Agrh
today ws a bit of a rubbish day 2day i'd say

feeling rubbish
gt a cold
bt i jst CAN'T b ill over xmas coz of resits
so therefore i'm nt ill

jst tired

panto
will be fun
when its over

Dodd is still complaining abt lines - he rele hasn't gt tht much (i mean try doing diploma for example)
and evry1's busy - so thts nt a decent excuse
at least clatters is making a gd effort
t'will b funny

i dont think any of the us can listen to THAT poem at the end without cracking up
hehe
ah the genius of it all

Lots Of Love to the weez
sorry to hear your news
thinking of u
don't be up in the shire of york too long, i is missing u

I need to sneezes so badly
but sneezes r jst nt coming

Must gt back to the genetics
i don't like its all the same thing
over
and over





and over



bt we started learning abt the brain 2day with Masri
which is v.interesting and kwl
s0 that almost makes up for it

the holidays cannot come quickly enough right now

A few times I've been around that track so its not just gonna happen like that

What is it with weeks these days??
they're the same old bog standard seven days that they used to be but time seems to be playing fun and games with that standard.....

The week drags Mon-Fri - but then the bell rings at 2:55 on Fri and all i think is "where has this week gone?"
Then the weekend looks like this amazing two-day rest - but that finishes too soon after a good lie-in

ach
look at me moaning
what a bore
this whole thing
me
myself
and i


FUEL last night ws rele gd - felt happy and bouncy after all the serious stuff had been done
2nite is lost which i am well stoked about
"stoked"
what an american word
i'm adopting so many american-isms frm mark&meg (youthworkers)
its fun
but scary hw impressionable my vocab is
mind u they've been here two years

TWO YEARS (jst had to look tht up)
that's surely not possible??

ack
mygosh
i was 15!!!!

wow life sure is hitting me in the face 2day

now i rele am rambling

something i realised is that i need to learn more when to stop talking
which is prob where the "shut up Kat" line came from
unfortunately i prob don't use that line enough.....

bt then again i like rambling - and i don't know too many ppl who hav a prob with it....

run out of things to say

well not rele
but think i should get bac 2 work

HAPPY ADVENT!
well that was yesters
bt i didnt blog then
:P