Wednesday, January 10, 2007

I need to know I need to know tonight

YES

RIGHT NOW
I NEED TO MAGICALLY REMEMBER EVERYTHING I WAS SUPPOSED TO LEARN LAST YEAR IN BIOLOGY


i suck

this post sucks

and although part of me doesn't care anymore

the most part of me hates me for not being more motivated, for not doing more revision, for not being clever enough to remember enough to get decent grades, for the wasting time on the internet (damn all the myspaces, bebos and blogs of this world), for lying about how I feel, how much revision i've managed.


why can't I be more organised about organising my gap year

why don't i have time to see all the friends i want to

why am i telling you this?


ARGH

i need an elena-hug

i need a ling hug

i need a hannah hug

I NEED LOTS OF HUGS PPL!!


ok so now i am laughing hysterically at myself


and i feel alot better for the keyboard rant

lots of things off the chestie


Now off to cram

am having second thoughts about posting this coz i'm alrite rele

better press the publish button before i have a chance to read this

and not let the fact that i have my first drama lesson with downey 2moro cross my mind


:S

its all banannas


*bananas of the world unite!*

no-one bt mi biology trip dormies are gonna get that, bt hey!

2 comments:

Ling2 said...

i ned hugs too... i need a big SWPS hug!!!! but hey... i'm not gonna get one

anyway, just had my business resit - unit 2. it actually went not too bad. i managed to think of something related to business for every question and answered well within time. very pleased.

i have to wait another two weeks for laban to get back to me. arg. other things for me to do include revising for my C2 maths paper this afternoon. sucks. but at least i did a whole paper last night.

thanks for asking how i felt before, kat. i'm okay actually.i don't think i deal with grief badly. i mean, although it was hard for me to get attached to my grandma (and uncle) i still loved them. but i haven't properly cried. i mean i've had tears but none have fallen down my face... so *shrugs* not so sure. however, if you see someone clad in black around woking, it could be me but only for the next few days. you see i'm dressed in black for respect and stuff and we're not allowed to celebrate chinese new year this year. but that's okay.

anyways, since i don't seem to contact hannah f/w as much as i contact you, tell them i love and miss them both.

hope to see you all soon!!!

Mr Beaman said...

Ach, my friend the exam must have gone fabbily. Never fear, 'Mael is here, as always.

*Hugs*

xxxxxx